"Just eat like a normal person,"

Sometimes I just sit down and think, "You can eat, you know. You can eat and it will be okay. Just don't over-eat and everything will be fine. You can eat and you can be happy and healthy and everything will be fine. Just eat like a normal person."

The problem is, when I think about this, I get scared. I don't want to end up 'trading' this disorder for bed or coe, you know? I mean, I'd rather be stuck with this and be too thin then end up having binge disorder and getting too fat.

But sometimes, I want to eat. I just can't. It's so much easier to just ignore food. To just hide from it and pretend it's never there.

"Just eat like a normal person."